“Please god. Feel the pain. The pain my heart is going through that someone like I can not tolerate. I pray to you god, on this night and not all other nights, because tonight I need you. You are the guider on my path, you know where it’s heading and I follow this path as if I know it so well but to me I’m only guessing. But god please. I pray to you tonight from my heart, my soul, my love. Help me follow the right path that will lead to happiness. For my family. Now we’re healthy, now we’re happy, but now is only the present. So I look and pray for the future. I laugh because I can’t cry. I joke because I can’t seem to see the reality. I pray to you on this night, I cry to myself on this night, tears rolling down the side of my cheeks from the corner of my eyes into my warm cotton feathered pillow and I beg. Beg because that’s the only option and I’m an desperate for food. As I lay here. In silence. My head pounds, the cars zoom by, yet everything is so still, so perfect, may the future continue this way, please. I beg of you.” -TMB